For a long time now I have been held back due to my insecurities. I am sure many of you can relate. We care too much about how people will perceive us and that leads us to avoid being exposed to the world.
We have this perception that if we accept our weaknesses, it will make us more vulnerable. We avoid people knowing about our weakness, and we do everything to prevent exposing our real personalities.
But does that help? I have been asking this question for a long time, and I know that it doesn’t matter, yet I don’t feel comfortable. My insecurities have held me back long enough, and it has kept me from truly embracing the person I am and the things I’m capable of doing.
So, starting today, I make a vow to be completely vulnerable. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Here we go.
I’m Far From Perfect
A lot of personal development bloggers write about how you can be better, but only a few are actually doing well in their own lives. It’s something that everyone who writes about personal development should be like. Why would you read about personal development from someone who is struggling with their own lives, right?
Well, let me tell you, I’m not going to go down that path. I’m far from perfect. I know a lot about how to manage time and be more productive, but that’s it!
For years, my pursuit to make a dent in the universe has made me ignore the basics of personal development. And starting today, you are going to read more about the struggles I go through.
Like many people, I was too much focused on success and ignored my health. I was leading a very sedentary life and ignored my health for years.
I’m currently overweight, struggling with depression and anxiety and suffer from insomnia. Working for hours on end led me to this unhealthy lifestyle. I used to feel proud that I was putting in more than 100 hours a week. I could work long stretches and work without real breaks for hours. And whenever I did take a break, all I could think about was work.
That’s how I was able to achieve more, learn more and grow faster than other people. But this relentless pursuit made me unhealthy. I was stressed, I couldn’t sleep because all I was thinking about was how I can get more done. My tasks list was getting longer as I progressed in my career. I was getting more work done than anyone else I know.
However, there comes a time when this lifestyle takes a toll on your health. My time came sooner than others, and it was time I realized that I can achieve more in a lifetime if I can be healthy. This is one of the reasons I have started focusing more on my health, and I am going to share what I learn on my other blog, Health Yeah!
I’m Far From Being A Pro
When I read about how people say that you have to think that you are a pro to behave like one. I disagree!
See, the thing is you not a Pro and thinking that you are is only going to feed your ego. I have come a long way, and I have learned a lot about my craft, but I’m far from being a Pro. I have a long way to go, and I don’t and won’t get offended if someone calls me an amateur!
I’m comfortable being an amateur because that gives me more room to learn. I will become a pro, but I won’t be the one calling myself that, someday, people will call me a pro and I will know at that moment that I have reached that level of mastery. Until then, I will stay an amateur, and I will keep learning and growing!
I Don’t Have All The Answers
I do write about a lot of topics on this blog, but let me tell you that I don’t know everything. I don’t have all the answers. What I have is my perspective to the questions people ask, and I will keep sharing it with you. But that doesn’t mean that I know everything about that topic!
What I am good at and what I always do when I am writing on any topic is breaking down the problem and coming up with how I would have solved them. Many of the questions and issues I write about are the things that I am struggling with right now.
I am not a messiah or a prophet who has achieved enlightenment. No one knows everything, all everyone does is share their views, but they do it by pretending to be enlightened, and they make more money that way. I am not going to do that. I have had and will continue to experience life in my own unique way, and I will keep sharing what I have learned.
So, this is my first step to be more accurate to who I am. If you reading this, you know where I stand today, and if you stick long enough, you will see where I am headed. It is going to be a long and rough journey, but I have you, and I have myself, that’s all I need for now. Thank you for reading, and I hope you keep coming back if you feel alright to read what I have to offer even after knowing me. 🙂